In your own words, what is your kink about?
I’m a woman who has a mental problem (I have a lot of mental problems, but let’s just talk about my kinks for now). I’m under 5 ft tall and I lack curves. While being obsessed with my own sexuality at an early age, when I grew from a young teen and into my 20s, when I saw all the other girls growing and blossoming and I wasn’t getting ANYTHING, it broke me mentally. I started into porn with huge breasts, then I started looking into GROWING breasts. I fantasized about having tits growing under my own hands and being able to knead those fleshy orbs more and more, it turned me bisexual and made me into the pervert I am today.
I then branched out into most of the other growth fetishes and found I enjoyed them just as much. Muscle growth, giantess growth, even futanari growth, I just kept moving down farther into the rabbit’s hole. I especially got into Female Muscle Growth (FMG) after an incident in my mid teens where I...was not in control. I promised myself I would never be a victim again and have hit the gym nearly every day since. Strength makes me feel confident and eventually that turned into getting turned on not only in my own muscles, but in seeing pounds of muscles stacked upon each other on other girls.
Monster love came because I read a lot of mythology and turning into a hardcore monster is definitely a turn on. Not just some anime cat girl with ears and a tail, I’m into the grotesque Lovecraftian monsters and all the weird taboo stuff that gets banned on public sites. I think this is maybe a reflection of how I see myself partially and my own self-hatred finding an outlet.
The last one came a bit later. I’m hugely into cumflation and just getting drowned in cum. I think this one came around about the same time me and the spouse found out I was infertile, and this was a coping mechanism to help me fill a hole in me that couldn’t otherwise be filled. Then it turned into a sexual fetish.
Huh, guess more of my fetishes came from trauma than I realized.
What are the different spokes in this kink’s umbrella that you know of?
Breast expansion is all about getting bigger breasts, but I’m into more than that. I’m into the GROWING part, and some of the best examples I love involve bursting out of clothing. I am also all about the liquids, so lactation is an added bonus.
Bursting out of clothing is a highlight of any good growth/transformation fetish. There’s also fun little sub genres of all this stuff, mixing and matching BE (breast expansion) with FMG or TG (transgender, or changing gender transformation) and TF (transformation, as in animal/monster transformation).
Really any way you can get a girl bigger, I’m into it.
What spoke(s) in particular interest you?
I think I’ve covered this in earlier questions, so I’ll see if I can try it from another angle. With me, there is no limit in my fetishes. For instance, I don’t just want bowling ball sized tits, I want juggs that fill up a large room, lift me into the air and keep growing as they destroy my home. I don’t want to look like a FBB (female bodybuilder), I want hyper muscles on par with the most extreme of Tigersan’s artwork. I don’t want to just be taller, I want to be large enough to use a skyscraper as a dildo. I want a Futa cock that cums hundreds of gallons of jizz a dozen times a day. I don’t just want some fur and a tail, I want to become some chimeran creature with dozens of limbs and freakish designs.
If you had to guess, about how long have you been interested in this?
I’ve been masturbating pretty regularly since I was 12. 15 is when I had the aforementioned incident and it was around this time I realized I wasn’t going to get much bigger, so I guess around 15 for a lot of it. My extreme views didn’t happen all at once, I blame BustArtist and his old website for getting me primed into these fetishes.
How did you initially learn about it?
...I need to learn to read all the questions before answering.
Bustartist is probably the one most responsible for specifically turning me towards growth as a fetish. I own all his comics and stories and his artwork is plastered throughout my porn collection. Grow Stories #15 Succubus is my current favorite, but I’ve been loving his Grow Cinema stories a whole lot.
Back when I was 15, all he had were some pencil comics and some single art on the old bearchive website. Found him in that while I was searching for ways to make my boobs bigger.
What kept you interested?
My own jealousy, I think. I can get turned on when I see a girl sporting some pert Es jiggle past me, but there is always a bit of rage that some girls have genetics and then there’s me with nothing. My therapist also has said I’ve rewired my own brain chemistry over the years and sexual pleasure has attached itself to my fulfillment center so I don’t just think about bigger boobs, I NEED bigger boobs.
I am fully aware of my addictions and how weird they are. I wrote my book partially as an outlet for these kinks.
Was there ever a time you thought you took a wrong turn down the rabbit hole? If yes, what happened?
Growth fetishes come with some strange stuff and there is plenty I wish I could scrub out of my brain with bleach. If you can connect the dots, I have a problem over consent. Growth has a sub genre known as Age Progression/Regression. I despise these genres.
Also, most giantess stuff usually leads to vore or crushing. I don’t like violence or anything like this in my kink and can get squeamish easily.
Which goes to show that one person’s fetish is another person’s puke fest. I can really get behind monster egg birthing but vore is too much for me.
Was there ever a time that you thought it might not be for you after all? If yes, what happened?
When I was in rehab for my masturbation addiction, I had a lot of time to rethink a lot of things about my sexuality. My therapist and I talked it out and my conclusion was sex is great so long as I don’t harm anyone else. So I like growing tits? My husband likes me to wear my Slave Leia costume or do a strip tease while dancing to 80s pop.
I guess I have issues and they drive my sexual deviancy further than most, but I’ve managed to reach a balance in my life despite that.
If you could clear up any stigmas or stereotypes about this kink, what would they be?
I’m far and away on the more extreme side of the growth kink. That comes from age, I think because no one starts out on the extremes of a kink when they are young. And I’m also more broad spectrum than most. The growth community is a whole bunch of little pockets of specialized kinks that can be as broad as breast expansion to as detailed as MLP anthro futa involving OC clop. They all tend to be cliquish but otherwise welcoming whenever someone shows any interest in their tiny corner of the fetish landscape.
Is there anything else you would like the world at large to know about your kink?
If you want to know more, growth fetish is sometimes hard to break into because it is hard to know what will turn you on. But if you want to know more, my book, Becoming Monsters Book 1: Growing Problems is an excellent primer while also being an entertaining story. Come for the growing breasts and stay for the cast of realistic characters!
https://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/B084ZQF48C
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